considering that i'm really sick & drowsy off nyquil, i'll make this qiuck. it doesn't really matter what you think, i'm not the same girl i was a year ago. i've had my fair share of fuck ups but i've paid my price & i've grown up jus a little more from every one of them. one big thing i realized.. i never made decisions for myself and i was always dependent on the opinion of someone else. & that's how things fall apart, you know? when you're too busy busting your ass tryna to make someone else happy & eventually failing every time because you have no idea how to make yourself happy first. well i'm finally content with myself now, ready to let go of how i wanted things to be & accept things for how they are. 2008 has been a lesson learned, forsure. every bad decision, every mishap, every sleepless night, every heartache, every fight has been a lesson well learned. i'm hurt but i'm okay. i'm still learning but i'm getting better. i no longer hold a heavy heart & i'm not mad. i fixed all that i could & i'm moving on. i've made peace with my past & i'm looking forward. i finally grew the fuck up & i think you'd be proud. hello 2009! :) xoxo, Kayla Noelle Cruz.
