it's been a long day

noon flight got delayed to 3, babysat my little brat for a long while, drove TWO hours with my cousin to sacramento, watched house bunny, opened a bunch of presents, finally staying here for the night. i'm pooped. buuuuuut..

MERRY

CHRISTMAS

everyone! :) ♥

last one

ugh i needa finish packing now. my flight leaves tmrw at noon ;/ well i'm never on myspace anymore & i probably won't update this shit for a while because i'll be too busy babysitting. but i'll always have a telefono as long as none of my little boogers take it from me so keep in touch :)

I hope everyone has a safe Christmas & a good break!<3

xoxo,

Kayla

asian innocence?

so today was pretty goooood. woke up super early & drove to glendale with daddy. we stood in line at porto's for almost an hour jus to pick up cheese rolls for my cousins in the bay. they don't have a porto's up there so they make sure i bring them some every time i visit haha. then i had lunch with faye at our favorite, BJ's. we shared a pesto pizza & grilled chicken pasta.. ahhh it was soooo good. then hung out with cathylofran! we ran into chelsea at starbucks. then took cue pictures since cathy's been waiting to take those shits since summer! haha. then we did some other shit, went back to starbucks, then stopped by ralph's for a box of hot tamales. we were in line & the guy in front of us saw cathy pull out our cue pictures & asked to look at them. he was like, "aw cute, asian innocence." hahaha we were like, "of couuuuurse :)" & he was like, "yea right, you guys are the ones people needa look out for!" hahahah<3

innocent, right? (:

1. "Happy Holidays from Cathy & Kayla!" hahaha.

2. i'm really not that chinky, i swear -.-

ps/

i know i've been suuuuuper duper lagging it but.. i FINALLY finished my driver's ed! wooooo =) thanks to the lovely cathylofran who basically did it all for me. hahahaha. where the fuck would i be without you, babygirl?! let's jus hope i don't lag it as bad to take my permit test. i needa ride to the DMV! becos there's no way in hell mama or pops will take me. it's already breaking their hearts that i even want my license. oh wellll, i'm jus fucking happy i'm done with that shit! :D arright, peace bitches.

Lily Allen: The Fear

this bitch is shameless but i love it. here's her newest shit. the lyrics are hilarious but cute. plus, i jus love british potty mouths.

"Forget about guns and forget ammunition

Cause I’m killing em all on my own little mission.

Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner

Now everything's cool as long as I’m getting thinner."

Dear Santa,

This year, I want: a pink blackberry curve, a crimson pink coolpix S60, $$$ (of course), a limitless Starbucks gift card, Vera Wang Princess perfume, a new bottle of Clinique Happy for my everyday, boxes of hot tamales, lots of chocolate dumdums, a Silence & Noise bomber jacket, Laker tickets for mama & daddy, Disnyland tickets (while it's still Christmas time), an olive American Apparel circle scarf, thermal pjs from Victoria's Secret + the matching slippers, Common tickets, a Louis Vuitton Speedy 30 (monogram canvas), a white acura TSX (i decided an RSX was too small for me), one tree hill all seasons on dvd, Love Actually on dvd, Tuesdays With Morrie (i lost my only copy), snowfall in SoCal, and that belated birthday dinner i was promised.

jk! :) Honestly, if that's too much to ask for then i'll settle for.. some consistency. No more of these ups & downs. Jus a good 2009. Surprise me.

xoxo,

Kayla

ps/ hahahaha, i miss this show :(

my sunday secret

but i'm sure that wasn't much of a secret.

Twin Peaks, San Francisco

See you next week, beautiful.

i'm pretty sure seeing this again & again makes up for still never getting to see the view from Reseda Point. besides, any way i look at the valley it's still allll the same old shit. haha bitter much? i guess i'm jus ready to get out. it's always when it's soooo close that you get the most impatient, yenno?

drunk dialed

it's noon & i'm still in bed. i was up til 2am taking care of my little beefy. poor baby had too many Mickey's & not enough hot pockets. luckily, her mama understood and took care of her for the rest of the night.

welllll wtf am i doing today. party in the valley? haha nah. if i really wanted to run into drama, i'd find another way. so i'm leaving in FOUR days. tell me why i'm suddenly getting really nervous to be away from everyone for more than a week. then i think about it again and i realize how much i need to really get away from the valley, even if i am scared of being homesick. i need to be forced out of my comfort zone since nothing down here is promoting me to do anything aside from normal. everything & everybody is same old same old. i think i'm jus really nervous for how crazy the weather's gonna be. i'm nowhere close to being done packing & already, my Hello Kitty duffle bag is overflowing with my clothes. i'm gonna die up there! wish me luck.

ughhhh i'm getting out of bed now. mama rented Mamamia the other day jus to watch with me but when she asked me to watch it last night, i was in the worst mood & jus ignored her. i swear, i'm sucha brat but she puts up with it. gonna make her breakfast & watch that cheesy movie with her now. haha peace bitches.

our "friday night"

so, yesterday.. school was beyond shitty. like.. fuck it, whatever. after school, ran into some drama -.- but finally got to erin's house. got ready, got her job applications, & we were off. first stop, coco's. aw i can jus see erin being a cute little hostess telling people where to sit & shit haha. second stop, jamba juice. we were too lazy to go all the way over there so we ended up jus chilling at starbucks. FUCK THE BITCH WHO STOLE MY VENTI CHAI TEA LATTE! hahaha. had L&L with rob & juj, went to myles' cancelled game -.-, met my future husband Daniel hahaha, & a few other things (: it was thee perfect way to start off my winter break. & today, we're finally taking faye out! yayyyyy. k peace bitches.

ohhhhh! & 7 pounds is finally in theaters today. i've been talking about this movie since september. i saw a preview of it when i watched Eagle Eye with daddy. i realllllly wanna watch it before i leave for SanFran on Wednesday.

what the hellz?!

holy shit, i don't even know why i've been such a fucking mess lately. really thought i had it all figured out but i shoulda known better. guess that's what i get for wishful thinking. bleh & i'm definitely NOT feelin' this deathly weather. it's really not helping at all. whatevs, less than 24hrs til Winter Break. mmmmmhm, 3 stress-free weeks of sleeping in & staying up late. i'll survive, jus being super duper maharte at the moment. peace bitches.

Finals Week

a little different this year, huh?


my schedule!
Tuesday: Anatomy & Spanish III
Mr. Meyer's a joke & was too lazy to make a final, thank God. Just needa worry about Spanish cos ass kissing only got me so far, hah.
Wednesday: Church History & English Lit.
Even if i fail Ms. Little's final, i still have an A so whatever. Eh, i gave up on english, the highest i can get in that bullshit class is a B- anyways. oh well.
Thursday: Trig & US History
Already got that shit down! pretty much.


AND I'M OUT! :)
a weekend with my girls then i'm off to the bay, finallllllly!


ps/ lmao, if you haven't already seen it..

happy holidays

NYC Louis Vuitton. cute.

"Everybody knows but nobody really knows.."

considering that i'm really sick & drowsy off nyquil, i'll make this qiuck. it doesn't really matter what you think, i'm not the same girl i was a year ago. i've had my fair share of fuck ups but i've paid my price & i've grown up jus a little more from every one of them. one big thing i realized.. i never made decisions for myself and i was always dependent on the opinion of someone else. & that's how things fall apart, you know? when you're too busy busting your ass tryna to make someone else happy & eventually failing every time because you have no idea how to make yourself happy first. well i'm finally content with myself now, ready to let go of how i wanted things to be & accept things for how they are. 2008 has been a lesson learned, forsure. every bad decision, every mishap, every sleepless night, every heartache, every fight has been a lesson well learned. i'm hurt but i'm okay. i'm still learning but i'm getting better. i no longer hold a heavy heart & i'm not mad. i fixed all that i could & i'm moving on. i've made peace with my past & i'm looking forward. i finally grew the fuck up & i think you'd be proud. hello 2009! :) xoxo, Kayla Noelle Cruz.

'nuff said.

"You know, it's pretty rare to find someone you actually like to be with in this world. There are a lot of annoying people out there."

nigga, i thought you knew. tsk tsk.

chasing pavements

since mama got laid off, me & her get to come home early. so today, the ellen show was on & adele performed Chasing Pavements. i had no idea how amazing she was live. her performance sounded soooo much better than her, already amazing, album version. getting tickets to one of her shows is now one of my main goals.. or christmas wish? (:

word?

wyrd: (n.) fate derived from one's past actions

Past actions continually affect and condition the future. There is an inter-connectedness of all human actions and how they influence one another.

+ this has got to be the only useful thing i've learned all semester in my english class. a fancy, makes-you-sound-smart way to say what YOU used to tell me all the time.. Everything happens for a reason. gotchu.

oh! & i stand corrected, Pacquiao won -.- holy shit, i didn't think the little guy had it in him. but thank God he did, mama's in a good mood now haha. this weekend wasn't as stressful as i thought it would be. leaving once again for my.. 6th? starbucks this week (: seriously, chai tea lattes & hot tamales have become my anti-drugs & i looove it lol.

"Never have I ever.."

had sucha good night with my babies in sooo long (: finally reunited! i love the three of us + mama niks together. brought back old memories.. hahah, even though no one else understood whatTF we were talking about. i take back what i said, this weekend is not gonna suck. last night was good, detention was whatever, & i finally finished all my research for my gayass paper. i'm gonna try to finish the pre-writing today & the rough draft by tmrw. good luck to me.

damn creepers

a guy at COC hitting on a girl in alemany uniform, really? -.- anyways, this weekend's gonna suck because of my research paper & all my shit due before finals week. fuck stress. fuck creepers. & fuck saturday morning detention. whatever, about to leave to get my 2nd starbucks for the day (: xoxo.

finally

on to more important things. school's a bitch but i'm finally getting back on track & handling all my shit. covered the entire house with christmas stuff & decorated the tree last night (: but i need december 19th to come faster! so i can get my permit, have a movie night with faye & erin, hang out with my best friend, read lock & key, go out with my girls, & pack for SanFran :D for now.. finishing trig & opening another box of hot tamales!! peace bitches.